It’s not about being right. I don’t need you to agree with everything I say. But I wish, just once, you could see it the way I do. It’s not to be controlling, it’s not just hear the words…but understand what’s behind them.

Because when I try to explain something about how I feel, it’s not random. It’s something I’ve already thought about. It’s something I’ve gone over in my head more than once before I even say it out loud, because that’s what i have to do now.

And when it gets dismissed or misunderstood, it doesn’t just feel like a disagreement. It feels like the part I tried to explain again… wasn’t heard at all… again. And here we go again.. all I do is try again and again.

Saying it differently. Explaining it better. Breaking it down so it makes more sense. And at some point, it stops feeling like a conversation. It feels like I’m trying to prove something that was never meant to be a debate. This is exhausting.

I don’t expect you to feel everything the same way…but I do wish you could meet me somewhere in the middle, even just listen, but not half listen and not pay attention.

Because right now, it feels like I’m explaining something you’re not really trying to understand, or is it that you don’t want to understand?