I’ve been thinking about this more than I want to, becuase of the realisation, I’m becoming a shadow of who i was.

I look back and tried to figure out when it changed. Because there wasn’t a clear moment. No argument that stands out. No obvious shift. It just… feels different now. The way we talk. The way we don’t talk. The way I’ve learned to keep to myself to keep the peace. The way things always end up. The way I think about what I say before I say it. The way I have to overthink everything, even just general conversations.

That’s the peak; there’s a distance there that I can’t quite explain. And I’ve noticed it in small ways. Things I would have shared before. Things I would have said straight away, I hold back.

Not because I want to…but because it doesn’t feel the same anymore, and I don’t know how to bring that up without it turning into something bigger.

So I’ve just been sitting with it. Hoping it settles. But it hasn’t and that’s the part I can’t ignore anymore.